Friday, May 15, 2020

it’s daunting to think I have so much life left

so many years ahead of me
knowing they will be more painful and harder to physically and mentally "do" as i progress in age

this isn't something i dread
but it's not something i necessarily look forward to either

i look forward to having my flower garden finished and spending time sitting on the swing in the middle

i look forward to taking short walks with my husband holding my hand

i look forward to.. seeing what God is doing in this season of my life. being able to look back and understand why i'm doing what i'm doing.

it's hard to know that my form of illness doesn't shorten my life, just makes it unbearable.

*sigh

God only knows why
And i'll trust Him
and not question Him

His plan is the best

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