my older brother is a pastor, a singer, plays guitar and
my younger sister sings and plays guitar
my mom and dad have both been in praise teams and choirs
and I also have a good voice and have sang on praise teams, gone on mission trips that required singing and dancing
…
but when I try to do what they do, it feels forced.
and it isn't generally taken the same
and I'm coming to find out
that I'm trying to do what they do
and that's not what I'm called to do
I'm better at speaking words that are placed on my heart
than singing
I'm better at spreading word through social media, graphics, creativity
those are my blessings from God
I'm just so used to trying to do what other people do
that I forget and lose the path that God gave me
when I conform to the "normal" of other people
He can't speak through me the way He wants to
He has called me to do other things
because I am not those people
Reminding myself that God gave me a talent for words
that others don't have
and He wants to speak to others through them
remember Cami
God made you unique
He didn't make you like others
He made you.. you
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this is rooted in my "always want to be acceptable" pain
being autistic, I'm unacceptable.. but to whom?
I'm created and accepted by God, just as I am
praise Him
this is rooted in my "always want to be acceptable" pain
being autistic, I'm unacceptable.. but to whom?
I'm created and accepted by God, just as I am
praise Him
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