coronavirus - mental health

i miss being alone

trying to find moments of quiet
where i don't have to think about what my kids should be doing

if my husband is going to call me in the next minute

being able to clean the house my way
with nobody in the way
or telling me how to do it different

i miss being alone

i dont like crying
because my anxiety is triggered

i don't like being told i'm spoiled being alone
when in reality, it's necessary for my health for me to be alone

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i've had two days now of dealing with my depression pretty bad.
i'm doing better now, but the anxiety triggers are so easy