on our trip to NY recently for a funeral, my husband had some problems with his anxiety while on the road around a lot of vehicles, mainly semi's. you could tell he was getting irritated and nervous. once he got through it was fine.
and i continued thinking about it for a while. i asked how he was doing about 10 minutes down the road, and he was like "oh, i already forgot about it. i'm fine."
his nervousness was gone quickly, and manifested more like annoyance and frustration and anger.
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we were talking about praying out loud, i wanted to have him pray before we left. he was frustrated with me because faith is something he is struggling with right now, and he's not in the right frame of mind to be able to feel ok praying, let alone out loud.
i have a feeling that i pushed him to pray out loud because 1. i feel like it's encouraging him to keep trying. 2. is it because i'm uncomfortable praying out loud? i need to work on that.
he's over it and i'm still apologizing.
10 minutes later- i know he appreciates what i'm doing but i'm going about it the wrong way.
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i felt nervous and awkward for hours. after a while he took my hand and held it, and then twined his fingers in mine, and i was able to relax a bit.
when i rested my head on the dash on my pillow, he rubbed my spine. this made me be able to relax a bit more.
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