autism and anxiety- my life mix 8-2-19

8-2-19

OMGOSH today was very mentally overwhelming and exhausting. I didn’t do much physically, because there was no momentum or inspiration from anything. 

mom- coming over to not?

Jenn’s project

Jazmine going to mom heger’s house <—- at garage sale

time? 6ish Emilee too

Alivia (spend time)

Zoe- library project + cuddle time.

Brian- A2?

bike place

meijer

REI

target

best buy

5guys.

book writing

book reading

Do I turn off the AC?

means opening windows and putting the fan in ours.

the right way

sheets on bed?

fold laundry now?

don’t through brian’s laundry at him, leave it in the pile.

take care of your piles as you go

I_> i can’t do that.

i put all my piles together +

THEN put them away.

kids did laundry

w/o yelling,

something’s wrong,

i’m confused.

I made 1 cup of coffee and refilled the diffuser +turned it on.

WIN!

couldn’t read my devotion w/o interruption.

slammed my hands on the table. 

closed my book- overwhelmed.

put it away.

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I’m @ the library + Zoe’s art project is outside.

I made sure to turn in the reading slips for the grand prize. 

WIN!

the doors are loud every time they open.

the sound of someone on the computer, clicking, shifting in their seat.

The sound of someone checking books out- click, beep, paper shifting, voices.

copy machine- humming + beeping.

someone speaking.

feels like the ping pong ball in my brain is slowing down. the hard, fast bouncing doesn’t hurt anymore.

I’m hungry.

hydration.

Brian decided I needed to help him take the top off the Jeep when I was supposed to leave. 

Actually, after I was supposed to leave. 

I can hear the traffic on the main road beside us, especially the trucks. 

It sounds like a storm.