period

Laying here

On the couch

Curled up with a heat pad on my abdomen 

Thinking I should be doing something 

Productive 

I don’t want people thinking I’m wasting my time 

Just laying here 

I feel like I’ll be judged for taking care of myself 

If I’m on my phone

Will it look like I’m using this as an excuse to play 

The stigma

Of bleeding 

“It’s not that bad, suck it up”

The message we hear 

And now there’s a headache creeping up 

If you can’t see it, it’s not real 

Ugh

If you can see it, it’s gross

Throw my mental hands in the air 

While I’m curled around my heat pad