Sometimes i just feel so lost and over-turned as a person, with everything I deal with in my own body and mind, and now knowing who i can really talk to about different points in my life..
like when i know something in happening in my mind because of POTS.. who is ok to talk to about that?
when I know i'm over-reacting or becoming overwhelmed because of Anxiety or Autism.. who can I turn to that could help? talk me through it, help me focus.
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It really is true..
when someone has invisible illnesses and mental health issues.. it's a very different life.
There's never really one person you can turn to for everything..
And it truly does feel like you're losing yourself.
Not in a depressing way, necessarily.. just knowing you'll never be the same you that you used to be, and a new lifelong journey of being ok with the new you, and getting to know yourself again.
Hi Cami.. I'm Camella.
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In this also realizing that the only 1 true being I can turn to for all of it is my heavenly Father. So I am becoming more purposeful and driven to become close to Him. Because whenever I try to turn to people.. now knowing which one of them can hear me and help me.. I become lost. I start to spiral.
I need to find a quiet place a reach for Him in it.
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