EDS dishes ;)

Just wanna let you know in all my clumsiness, I have not had any of our Pyrex or corel break :-) shout out to these brands for making kitchenware that lasts, even through being dropped again and again.

i don't grip very well, and at times my fingers bend back when they shouldn't. so knowing that i have something solid that isn't going to easily fall apart.. makes a difference in my mind ;)

leg stopped working- crazy

Weird thing just happened… I went and dumped out my fruit and veggie scraps into the compost pile and on the way back my right leg felt like it stopped working. I tried to take a step and it was just like this nerve pinch thing going on and it took me a while to get to the back door but I made it. And now I am OK.

something to do with the bad discs in my back.
ridiculous.

cat health check

So this morning we weighed the cats because we haven’t in a while. We put Harley on a type of diet because she was 13 pounds last time we checked her months ago (we were giving her three scoops of dry food today, we bumped it back to two scoops of dry food a day). Unfortunately she has gained another pound which is interesting. Tiger is 10 pounds so he’s a healthy boy :-) good to know. He’s keeping his playfulness which is keeping him active, and now that we know he has an iron deficiency, we’ve integrated chicken or beef wet food into his diet once a week. So looking up information on how to help Harley lose weight still, interesting information I found out that she should be having some wet food to boost her protein and we need to play with her more :-) so good information, some changes to be made.

our choices matter

our choices matter, they don't just effect us. our choices effect our world, no matter how small or large that circle may be.

enough it enough- we can't just stand here and let other people take action around us. we have to do something. one small action creates a larger effect than you think.

Daily devotions

We hear different things like doing it first thing in the morning before anyone else is up is the best way to go, or carving out 30 minutes before work, but if I do it first thing in the morning before anyone gets up I’ll be getting up at 4:30 in the morning and I wouldn’t be able to focus and I wouldn’t be able to be awake enough because I have to get my kids up at 5 AM for the bus and I am still struggling to wake up after they’re on the bus. I honestly think that finding the time and space that works for you best is the best way to go. Now that everyone is on the bus and I have woken up and I have been able to fuel my body so I can focus and not worry about what my body is telling me it’s best for me. My husband is still in bed, he can get up when he needs to. The kids are off to school, I’ve had my coffee and I’m sitting here with my pills and water, ready to dive into the word. This works best for me, what works best for you?

Perfect timing

God’s timing is perfect :-) even in the little things. Actually I think mostly in the little things. Because it’s the little things that add up to the big things.

My husband is at work today and I got up to get my kids on the bus by the time he left for work I had already been up for three hours and my body was telling me I needed to rest. Basically I crashed, I was down for three hours. When I got up I kind of mentally kicked myself for being down for so long, but I’m also getting used to the fact that when my body tells me I need to do something, then I need to do it. Because one way or another, it’s going to happen.

So today I didn’t start cleaning the bathroom until close to 2 o’clock instead of usually getting it done in the morning. There I am spraying down the mirrors and I turn around and look at the little decorative shelf in the corner of the bathroom and I text my husband because he has taken it upon himself to use this little shelf as a makeshift art corner ;-). So I text him I thought that comes to my mind about his bathroom artwork LOL. And it being Monday I totally forgot he is in his work meeting, and he texted me back that he was indeed in the meeting and he had forgotten to put his watch on silent. So the text had come through, it had made the ding sound out loud, and it was about artwork in the bathroom LOL. If it wasn’t for all of this timing working together, this Monday could’ve been just Monday and boring and feeling like it’s dragging you down because the weather outside is not great, it’s not that sunny, it’s cloudy. It’s got a breeze but it’s like a chill breeze. So today could’ve been a very different day if that timing had not been spot on.

Thank you God for perfect timing in the little things, just because we need to learn to listen and to do when something even as unimportant sounding as our bodies tell us to do something.

Masking - we all do it

You use your mask because you just want to fit in. We don't want to stand out.

Psalm 139: 13+14

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

You were fearfully and wonderfully made. 

A friend of mine watching my blog last week actually brought that saying up. 

Fearfully and wonderfully made. 

We feel self-conscious about being different. 

We are so afraid of how other people are going to respond. 

Honor one another above yourself. Romans 12:10

You are uniquely you. 

If they stare, let them stare. It's hard to blend in when you were made to stand out. 

Reminds me of a Rich Mullins song-
If I Stand

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 

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This message made me cry. It came to me at the opportune time on Sunday, as I had put on a dress that I made to wear to church, and just didn't feel right in it (I didn't feel like I could pull it off, and in my head I was mulling through what they would think of me, being a new person to the church and not being normal, etc), so I subbed it for a vintage sundress. 

In the end, i'm glad I didn't wear the dress yet, because I really did need to adjust it. It didn't feel quite "finished". 

In general, I don't like to stand out. I just don't, it's not me. But the talents and abilities that God gave me are not the kind that make me blend in. They are meant to stand out. Unfortunately I struggle with that because being autistic, i'm a wall flower. I don't want people to see me. I don't like to have to interact. But if i'm my true self, I'm putting myself out there. It's not easy for me to be face to face and have to say things and have to respond and answer questions, etc. 

So I struggle with this concept a lot.