Real life questions, topics, inspiration, and my personal faith and chronic illness journey.
Sunday, December 20, 2020
Why does God want us?
Thursday, December 17, 2020
40 days in the Bible - what gives?
the ark- Noah
Jesus being out alone in the desert
what's with the 40 days?
"“Forty days” means “forty days,” but it does seem that God has chosen this number to help emphasize times of trouble and hardship. "
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" Answer: The number 40 shows up often in the Bible. Because 40 appears so often in contexts dealing with judgment or testing, many scholars understand it to be the number of “probation” or “trial.”. This doesn’t mean that 40 is entirely symbolic; it still has a literal meaning in Scripture. “Forty days” means “forty days,” but it does seem that God has chosen this number to help emphasize times of trouble and hardship." - gotquestions.org
This is actually a specific number of days.
"After all, it pops up in the Good Book 159 times , across both the Old and New Testaments." - guideposts.org
This reminds me of a month of probation or a month of test and see what happens.
Wednesday, December 16, 2020
Parenting during a pandemic.. food
Okay.. so I’m going to say.. I don’t care. Lol.
As a mom.. trying to just make it through this virtual school thing, I’m not worrying too much about making meals.
Why?
Because keeping up with all their classes, virtual meetings, making sure they do them AND stay on schedule.
And then still trying to clean the house. Making sure I know when the laundry needs to be done, and the vacuuming, and the bathroom cleaning, and picking up things that I’ve put down everywhere in an attempt to get to them sooner or later.
And then still keeping up with the regular self care and receipts and appointments (whether in person or virtual) and helping my husband with whatever he needs from me.
SO GRATEFUL that the school is doing weekly pickup for school food, because that’s a huge blessing.
So no.. making a weekly sit down meal is not on my agenda.
This mama is whooped. As long as they are fed and not full of sugar.. My job is done. :)
So I care, as a mom, because if I didn’t, it wouldn’t matter to me what was on the grocery list. But I do. I make sure there are food options in the house that won’t make them overweight and addicted.
So as long as my house is stocked with enough to eat, my opinion, they can have their choice of food.
Tuesday, December 15, 2020
the cult of self-affirmation
autonomy and authenticity - Allie B Stuckey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PyQaY0WTE9A&list=WL&index=28&t=1679s
gender ideology
you are yourself to the point of denying your physical appearance and letting feelings guide your life
be who you are
but self-empowerment takes power away from our Creator
we are not supposed to trust ourselves, we are sinful and fallible
we are to rely on God who is perfect and all powerful and consistent eternally
the God of this cult is "self"
we are making ourselves God's, idolizing humanity as all powerful
we try to take control of every aspect of life
Thursday, December 3, 2020
where does tax money go
Michigan taxes, I found, go mostly to school systems k-12 and government funding. But with our roads getting damaged a lot, I wonder why we don’t have more tax dollars going towards that?
https://www.michiganradio.org/post/where-do-michigans-tax-dollars-go
Wednesday, December 2, 2020
Porn - parent seminar
Pornography refers to material dealing with sex designed to arouse its readers or viewers. Webster's Dictionary defines “pornography” as “writings, pictures, etc. intended primarily to arouse sexual desire.” There are two types of pornography that receive no First Amendment protection — obscenity and child pornography.
friend in school on the bus talking about a movie on TV called "she woke up pregnant". - conversation on a school bus going to school.. again, a private Christian school. My friend looked like she was excited that she saw something dirty, like it was a popular thing to do. I actually remember her saying “the doctor in the movie snuck into the room where the girl was sedated, unbuttoned her blouse and did it.” With this sparkle and giggle in her voice.. my goodness, the things we were subjected to, that i remember so clearly.
movie I saw on TV at a friends house, this guy with the long curly hair was like her 4th cousin and they were lovers. - i figured if it was okay for her to see this movie, it was not a bad movie. Looking back now, it was soft porn. Realizing now in adulthood that a sheltered little church girl was exposed to soft porn at a friends house before even leaving home to be on her own.. anybody anywhere can be exposed to these things and not know it!
me sexting in college - i didn’t have a clue what i was doing. But i started talking to this guy in a chat room who seemed nice and before you know it, I’m telling him dirty things like I’m writing a book or something, totally not even putting together in my head what was going on. I didn’t know then what i know about myself, so my naïveté got the best of me.
snap chat used to be called peek a boo, owned by the porn industry - why do we know these things and why don’t we do something about it? Like NOT USE THE APP?
https://conquerseries.com
helping older teens and men give up porn!
https://www.covenanteyes.com
software that helps you screen out porn on your devices.
motivation.. where does it go?
politically correct
https://radicalcopyeditor.com/2016/10/24/part-1-politically-correct-is-a-slur/
[Description of featured image above: Reason #1 for why we need to stop saying “politically correct”: it’s designed to be a slur, not a positive phrase. “PC” mythology speech bubble says: “Being politically correct means avoiding offensive language.” Radical truth-teller speech bubble says: “The term politically correct is a weapon used by people protecting their right to be biased.”]
https://radicalcopyeditor.com/2016/10/24/we-need-to-stop-saying-politically-correct/
- the act of setting someone free from imprisonment, slavery, or oppression; release."the liberation of all political prisoners"
- freedom from limits on thought or behavior."the struggle for women's liberation"If people wouldn’t get offended so easily, and stop misusing human rights, we wouldn’t have stupid phrases like “political correctness”. - ME
How religious are you?
- a particular system of faith and worship.plural noun: religions"the world's great religions"
- a pursuit or interest to which someone ascribes supreme importance."consumerism is the new religion"
Thursday, November 12, 2020
the book of job
how long was Job's suffering? could have been from a couple week to almost a year.
https://www.gotquestions.org/Job-suffering.html
This man, Job, was almost like a precursor to the picture of perfection that Jesus showed us in the New Testament.
So many times we question how someone who was/is so faithful to God and lived what looked like a perfect life could have so many "bad things" happen to them.
red letters
Luke 11
11 One day Jesus was praying in a certain place. When he finished, one of his disciples said to him, “Lord, teach us to pray, just as John taught his disciples.”
2 He said to them, “When you pray, say:
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want. (I lack nothing)
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters and restores my soul, for His name sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me.
You're rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil.
My cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord always.
Monday, November 2, 2020
being worthy, being enough
I don't understand what this means.
Being worthy.. of what? for what? because of what?
Then what?
Being enough.. enough of what?
Is this about being whole in yourself and loving yourself and being happy and stuff?
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Maybe it's because I find my worth in God, and I know that Jesus is enough for me.. because He is everything.
I have my value in my creator.. not in myself.
As a human being, I can't give myself value. I can love who I am, yes, but worthiness doesn't come from ourselves.. being "enough" doesn't make sense to me, because the word doesn't fit in my brain as a product of myself.
If these words, these "topics" come from the culture of finding happiness in myself and being whole as a person on my own.. that's probably why they don't make sense to me.
Because in myself, I am nothing. I am just a body that needs to be filled with the Holy Spirit and the message and the love of my Creator.
If I want to find worthiness and being enough of a person on my own, then I have no need for a Savior. And I have no need to detach from Him. If I do that, I am nothing.
Sometimes it's good to go back to your roots
When I think about the lord, how he saved me
cast your burden, unto Jesus, for he cares for you!
Thursday, October 29, 2020
expensive items being better than others
This idea came to mind because one of my daughters was with me in the car and we saw an expensive car and I said "that's a nice car". It made me think.. why is it a nice car? Because it costs a lot? Because it looks desirable to you?
So when we desire something that’s NOT ours, it’s BETTER than what we have?
I challenge you to look at your own life, look at the things that you have, and point out what you own that’s NICE.
I think it’s honestly because of our sin nature that we subconsciously always want things we don’t have.. and that goes against the 10 commandments. Imagine how it would feel if we didn’t have a problem with desiring things other people have. We would be so much more content with our lives.
What is it about basements that make them creepy?
Being single after divorce
Friday, October 16, 2020
Fad versus trend
A fad is something that comes and goes very quickly. Something that's popular and then fades out.
A trend is something that can be repeated or consistent over time.
I enjoy some things that are trendy. But I'm definitely not on board with most fads.
Fads can become trends!
But most of the time, a fad is something that explodes because it's ridiculous and then dies out fast.
Christ is not Jesus last name
When someone is nice to me... (a Childs point of view)
Wednesday, October 14, 2020
Eye Liner - My beauty thing.
I know this doesn't sound important, but to someone who doesn't really do makeup.. except for one product.. and then that product starts to give you allergies.. it's frustrating.
My favorite makeup product has always been eyeliner.
And up until a couple years ago, I always use Mary Kay soft twistable eyeliner. Well, come to find out, it is soy based, and I have become allergic to soy. DANG IT.
So I began a journey over the last month to find something else that I like and that works for me.
Hence.. the dollar tree eyeliner haul.
Jesse's girl was the first one I tried. It's a liquid metallic blue.. beautiful! And it stayed really well!
And no soy. ;)