the "cycle of social withdrawal"

 

I want to see people. 

I want to be part of other peoples lives. 

But then I become overwhelmed because I don’t think I’m wanted in that space, I have a hard time thinking that I’m worth being there, knowing that I’ll have to expend the energy to mask what I’m feeling, having to use mental space to get ready and not knowing if what I wear will be acceptable, or if I’m acceptable. 

So then I decide to stay home, and it makes me feel alone. And I don’t want to feel alone. 

I want to see people.