words of affirmation

well, i didn't get the position i applied for at work.
i interviewed for it a week ago.

but, i got a great response from my boss.

whereas this position might not be right for me, she said she commended me on my work at Customer Service.
since i was sort of thrown into it before the holiday season hit in the fall, i have sort of morphed into a great customer service rep, and have really made this position my own.

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also, i got a LOT of comments on my new capri pants. :)
i got them last year on clearance for $3 at the end of the season. it was my first time wearing them.
(white cotton background with blue denim flower print all over)

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also a friend of mine dropped in while i was working and made a comment on my nails, and then proceeded to ask me to do hers :)
we have a date this evening :D so exciting!

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i also got a compliment from my husband this evening when we were checking a map to see where the border between two states was, and i pointed out the dotted line that went behind a bunch of roads and the river.


it's been a day of positive affirmation for me. :)
thank you God for the wonderful people around me, and the ability to be lifted up by them, and not let it effect my humility.

you gotta take the good with the bad..

bad things about me:
-i'm terrible at parking
-i'm not very good at cleaning, i have to make myself do it, and half the time i leave something laying where it shouldn't be
-i yell at my kids
-i beat myself up.. a lot
-my communication skills aren't that good.. i would rather write to someone or just totally avoid, instead of seeing someone in person to tell them something. i don't like publicly speaking if i don't have to
-too many times, i let people walk on me


good things about me:
-i'm a good mom
-i'm a bargain hunter
-when i love, i love with all of me
-i'm faithful to a fault
-i love healthy food
-i love having the opportunity to stay fit
-i see my glass as half full
-i can easily emotionally connect to someone and empathize
-i'm a good seamstress :) my mama taught my well
-i'm tolerant


the thing is.. i can make this list all day long.. but it's not going to matter.
God doesn't care about it.
He doesn't make lists.
He tells me "child.. i made you. i made you in MY image. you are perfect because i'm your Creator. and all the bad things you think about yourself.. are nonsense. the Devil came to steal, kill and destroy.. I came to give life eternal. believe in Me, trust in Me.. and I will show you how perfect you are to Me."

why my business.. is my business.

i need to remind myself that people buy from my store.. because it's my store.
let me get into more detail.

sometimes i get into a funk and start thinking.. what can i do to get more sales? why am i NOT getting more sales? do i need to change something? what's the fad right now.. should i go with that?.. all these thoughts go through my head, and more.

but then i have to stop.
and think.
and remember..
the reason this is my store in the first place.

the things that i come up with in my own creative mind.. my artistic flair.. is why my business IS.
God gave me a special vision, a different way to look at things.
i can see the possibilities in materials before i even have them both in my hands.

so this, THIS, is why it's my store.

and this is why people buy from me.

i have a unique artistic vision, and i do great quality work.

feeling proud.. and slightly giddy

i just saw 152.5 on the scale. i'm not even trying to lost weight. a year or so ago i was doing this to lose weight and lose inches.. i was just plugging away working out at home by myself.. i actually saw 149 on the scale at one point. but i got back into my normal routine and went back up to 157 easily. i am not taking into account that i don't have the time that i used to, and i'm trying different exercises that i know are better for my core and easier on my joints.. and i've been more enjoying the journey as i go. so doing this just in my EVERYDAY, including keeping my eating habits in check, splurging on treats for myself more than i should (lol) and just in general trying to keep myself healthy, strong and flexible. this is a huge accomplishment for me smile emotico

hair journey #1

well.. i've had bangs forever.. my husband loves them, and they're fairly easy to maintain, not including the fact that they look good on me. so i've kept them for a very, VERY, long time.

but, a couple months ago, my husband asked if i would WANT to grow them out, how long would i go.. and i got the chance to play around with them! i've found out that i DO like them, i like the way they look, i like they're more feminine.. but i don't like that they keep falling in my face, even if i use hair spray, they just won't stay. so last night.. i said good-bye to long bangs.
TADA!

moving on.. learning more.. business

i would like to get to the next level.. but it's scary.. trying to push myself, but that fear of the unknown, and fear of criticism.. it kills me

i'm pushing myself a bit in raising some of my prices, taking some chances with the new product rolling out.

creating a work-around so i can still make mama cloth for USA ladies.

i don't have self confidence. i'm really a very non-confident person. i'm afraid of confrontation, i'm afraid of what people will think of me, of my creations.. will want to change how i do things..

i'm not good with change.

this is what i'm working through..

i might be meeting someone in the "fashion world", i might be taking a sewing class, i might be learning some new things through a website..
it's my self-confidence, self-worth and fear of change that is getting in my way.

all sins are equal

i was reminded last night that no sin is small than another.
so many times i think badly of other people at customer service having drinks other than water, because we're not supposed to.

today i was a bit hungry and i bought a candy bar just in time to clock in, and i debated taking it with me.. and i did. i took it with me though i shouldn't have. and my manager saw me with a mouthful and laughingly said "busted!".

Sorry Lord, for falling into temptation, and breaking a rule, no matter how small.