my place in time.

i feel like i'm in a really good place right now..
i feel like working at Kohls at Customer Service..
rebuilding my business, and changing it a bit..
partnering with my husband in his business venture..

learning new things about myself..
taking control of my health..
learning more about my kids and how i can help them daily..

building on my relationship with my husband..
and growing in my faith in God..

changing some things about our finances..
looking at a possible address change..

this is a great place and time for me.
for my family.

i feel like i'm where i'm supposed to be.

what I want to do..

i've been realizing more and more that there are things that i just really want to do before I meet my maker. 

i guess a "bucket list" sort of mentality. 

and i have already been checking some of these things off! :) 

i wanted a cartilege piercing in my ear.. did it in high school. 

i wanted to pierce a hole in my own ear.. did it in high school. 

i wanted to play an instrument really well.. did it in high school. 

but there are more things that i'm able to do now that i'm a bit older. 

wanted to color my hair.. i've slightly done it ;) lol. 

i swore i would never bleach my hair.. but i'm thinking it might be fun just to bleach the tips and ad some fun color to it. 

i might actually break my "no bleaching" rule. 

i wanted to get a nose ring.. did it 4 years ago.  

i wanted to travel and go on mission trips.. have been able to do both of those together 3 times now.. and i'm about to do it again.  

i'm still trying to get my first tattoo.. and now i want TWO. lol. planning at least one this summer. 

i wanted to lose my baby weight.. started working at that 3 years ago.. the weight is off, now just trying to continually maintain that. and i'm feeling better now that i'm in a smaller size. :) 

i would like a real diamond ring.. it's coming. ;) not sure how soon, but it's coming. 

i wanted to have and drive a purple Harley Davidson.. i got it last year, and i've driven it quite a bit. SUPER proud of myself for that one.. got a good deal, made a new friend, and i'm conquering a fear at the same time. and i don't have to worry about getting in an accident with it.. i've already done that HAHA. :) (slid going around a corner and landed in a muddy ditch.. don't worry, no harm was done. AND i've tipped it a time or two.. dang balance)

i want to visit Alaska. 

i want to go on a cruise. 

i want to zip-line. 

i want to climb a rock wall.

i want to go to a bed and breakfast.

i want to have a $0 balance on my Kohls charge card.. it's happening next month :D only 16 more days and i can buy something HAHA. 

i want to look in a bikini, even if i never wear one in public. (totally personal thing, but hey, it's important for ME to feel that.)

i want a purple and silver coach purse.

i want to go to Florida.. once. lol. 

i want to vacation in Italy. 

i want to go to Jerusalem and see some of the placed Jesus was. 

i want to make a really fancy dress for one of my girls.

and the main thing, during all of this, i want to live a Godly life.. 

there are some things that i want to do only because of my sinful nature.. those things can just go burn in hell. 

i'm stronger than that. 

it's a GOOD DAY..

Feb 28, 2015 started out with me getting a good nights rest :)
ironically, i didn't get to bed until 1 am because i closed at Kohls (didn't leave until 11:30).

had a yummy cup of coffee, didn't feel rushed before church..
had a great service
and even though Jazmine's boots officially have to be donated to goodwill (they were leaking and wet and are terribly unsupportive).. she was a trooper :)

Enjoyed some conversation and cookies after service
then went to drop off all our recycling (plastics, paper, cardboard).
headed to Tecumseh to the Harley place.. didn't buy anything! (GOOD FOR US!)
Brian tried on some boots, the girls enjoyed trying on some headbands and hats, i tried on some gloves to get an idea (i'll need some this summer).

Went to the gas station and filled up our popcorn buckets, then headed to the grocery store to fill up our cupboards. ;)

had a great time with lunch together, then Livy and I sat together on the couch and just cuddled and rested (she played with a nail art app on the iPad while i closed my eyes).

i got up and fixed brian's gloves while she started making a book "Livy's Animals".

had some dinner and left for work..
a VERY SLOW night at work.. didn't leave until 9:30 (closed)
and came home for some chips and tea, then went to bed when i felt tired.. instead of trying to stay up too long because it's nice and quiet! ;)

and praise God, my body didn't feel sore or tired or in pain.. i couldn't have asked for a better 24 hours ;)

so unscheduled and unplanned

well it started last night, when we got the 2 hour delay call for school

i didn't sleep well
then we got the call this morning that school was canceled.

- started my day with my kids at home.. automatic "probably not going to get done what i planned on"
- i started later than i wanted to
- i had to have a talk with my oldest daughter about her pill, because she tried to get away from the table with it under her tongue, not down her throat.
- a friend of mine, out of the blue, asked if she could come over and chat for a bit.. and bribed me with starbucks.. so i said yes.
- i got the laundry folded and the dishes done.. i feel like that's all i did. :(
- i felt rushed when i left
- Jazmine forgot her glasses, so i had to run back for them
- had to stop at the gas station and get our popcorn filled up, felt like it took forever for my 9 year old to go in and get it done (but she insisted on doing it herself).
- i got to husband's work, dropped off the kids, went to switch cars and accidentally pulled off the door handle, so had to take a second to look around the ground for anything i might have dropped
- got to work and found 2 holes in my sweater
- and my bangs kept falling in my face.

...............
didn't get done
- i planned on stocking the breast pads in my store
- i planned on sewing more kids clothes
- i planned on moving some product to a different area in my online store
- and planned on cleaning up my sewing table
..............

i'm not glad i didn't get the day i planned..
but i'm not sad about it either.

c'est la vie- as is life.

things change
gotta roll with it
and i'm glad i got to talk to my friend.. we just reconnected after 14 years

migraines.

"Migraines occur most often in adults between 20 and 50 years old. They’re three times more common in women than men, although doctors don’t understand why. Experts say hormones play a role.

Many women have migraine attacks around the time of their menstrual periods or find their attacks are more severe then."

really?

it takes an expert to say that hormones play a role in the fact that women get more migraines than men? i could have told you that.. 

hormones play a role in pretty much EVERYthing that happens to women.. it's basically common knowledge. 

oh wait.. common knowledge isn't very common.. forgot about that. 

.....

at least i have my migraine triggers narrowed down.. 

barometric pressure and not enough sleep. 

i knew it was going to happen when i saw that the temp was going to change at least 15 degrees today. 

basically.. funny ;)

Funny thing i just figured out about myself. i have a fetish for socks, tights and undies. lol. every time i see one on clearance for $3 or less, i want to buy it. fortunately, my drawer is only so big, so i can't, but i found this humorous.

i have a fetish for the basics. LOL
when most people say they don't want socks and underwear for christmas.. well i do HAHA.

give thanks in everything

today's going to be a busy day. praise God for the busy-ness that comes with having a family. 

laundry to fold- thank you God for the blessing of a washer and dryer, and my hands that were made to serve my family in this way. 

exercise- thank you God for a body that is intact, and the ability to keep myself healthy.
shipping- thank you God for the blessing of my business, to be able to create a product at a price that is good for everyone. and thank you for the gift of enjoyment, even though motorcycle helmets get recalled, there is a blessing in that as well- it's happening in winter. wink emoticon i can have a new helmet by spring!
Jazmine's glasses- thank you God for eye doctors and the ability to know when you need help.
Alivia and Brian, dance- thank you God for the love of a father to his daughter, and that the blessing is mine to be able to see this unfold.
IEP meeting- thank you God for the blessing of wonderful teachers who care about their students, and spend the time to help each and every one succeed.
Alivia's overnight at her best friends house- thank you God for the fellowship of friends. without them, our lives wouldn't be as full.